and other lovers

I know I have been unhappy for so long but why does it hurt so much to let go

Self destruct

after all that have been said and all that have been done, my psychology craves him so badly. i miss the early morning snuggles and the hugs to sleep. the kiss on my forehead every morning. the daily reminder that you love me more today than every other day.

why did i do this so wrong? why?

my heart feels like it is about to explore. this relationship has ended. and it is all my fault. this relationship is like water and i am trying to grab on and grab on and grab on but everything is slipping.

can’t it turn cold so all this will turn to ice and i can hang on?

someone sing me this please. or love light by cnblue….

I am trying to live as normal a live as possible. But how did things change over the ten days he was in malaysia.

Now, there is zero physical contact. He moves away when I accidentally touch him. He chases me out of the toilet when he is in there. Something he never did before. Even while change, he closes the door on me.

I have become a stranger, a room mate, to him and I am struggling to stay happy, to stay afloat.

I know I am being punished. I know I have to make it up to him but..he said we will be fine eventually. How will we survive this?

But sometimes I have a light and sometimes, I realise, if this does not work out then let it not work out. It is not that big a deal, I suppose; to not have the love I’ve always wanted with him.

I mean, I have always been complaining about how he does not love me the way I want to be loved. Even in the before.

But is this my fault? Or is this his?

Probs mine.. But what can I do.. Love is supposed to conquer all. Love is supposed to be ever enduring. Ever lasting.

How am I going to untangle myself?

時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇 妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著 有些愛只給到這 真的痛了

if i could take you away….

how do i undo hurt? or pain?

how can i take this away. or have we ended.

has the magic stopped.